Adventures in Gramophone

Cant put this off forever,
I’ve got to tell you some time.
But when I try and say it,
My mouth just gives up and dies.

I lose my meaning when I get this feeling.

Last night I nearly died,
But I woke up just in time.
Last night I nearly died,
But I woke up just in time.

I’m not who you think I am,
I slipped a stranger inside.
It helps the nights go quicker,
But I diminish each time.

And in the morning I shake the warning.

Last night I nearly died,
But I woke up just in time.
Last night I nearly died,
But I woke up just in time.

I get this feeling
I got this feeling
I woke up
I woke up
I’m gonna wake up
Gonna wake up

I lose my meaning when I get this feeling

Oh, last night I nearly died,
But I woke up just in time.
Last night I nearly died,
But I woke up just in time.

Last night I nearly died
Last night I nearly died
Last night I nearly died

I got soul by the Connswater River
Punched a hole in the guilty sky
Lost control by the Connswater River
Pretty graveyard eyes

I was lost like a stone in the water
I was lost but I was scared to go
And for a beat I am gripped by a vision
Allow myself to hope

Some things make your soul feel clean
Clean, clean
Some things make your soul feel clean
Clean, clean

Down deep I know
Down deep I know
Down deep I know
Down deep I know

I’m a fool and I’m filled up with sadness
Fallen through like a paper town
I’m as cruel as this Connswater winter
So lay this villain down

Some things make your soul feel clean
Clean, clean
Some things make your soul feel clean
Clean, clean

Down deep I know
Down deep I know
Down deep I know
Down deep I know
Down deep I know
Down deep I know
Down deep I know

I let you down
I let you down
I did it well, I gave you hell
And messed you around.
I was wrong and caught red handed
It didn’t work the way I planned it
I wish I hadn’t dressed you with that frown
I let you down.

I mucked it up
I mucked it up
You saw the side I tried to hide
And that was too much
I could go to church on Sunday
Maybe I’d be alright Monday
Amazin how this grace helps me rebound
I let you down.

Oh was it really me
Who jumped in first and made you curse
Just at the sight of me
How could it be
That I’d become the kind of one
I swore I’d never be

I was wrong and caught red handed
It didn’t work the way I’d planned it
I wish I hadn’t dressed you with that frown
I let you down
I let you down.

Lucky me I finally see,
I’ve got you as a friend,
It’s a sin, I’ve been so dim,
To see it too the end,
Such a thrill, my head you fill,
Your face betrays your heart.

And I’m sorry that I didn’t get it
Closer to the start

My love falls, a wrecking ball,
And knocks you down again.
Please look out, cause I’m about
As dangerous as fame
Such a thrill, my head you fill,
Your grace betrays your heart.

I wonder how we’re supposed to be together,
I wonder how we’re supposed to do this living,
But I don’t mind, if you don’t know
Maybe we could just pretend and paper over

I wonder if love will always be this painful
I wonder if we’re the only ones who struggle
But I don’t mind, if you don’t know
Maybe we could just pretend and paper over

Maybe this is as good as it gets sometimes
Maybe I’m just waiting for my life to start
Maybe this is as good as it gets sometimes
Maybe I’m just waiting for my life to start

But I don’t mind, if you don’t know
Maybe we could just pretend and paper over

Maybe this is as good as it gets
Maybe this is as good as it gets
Sometimes

Save me from the movies and someone else’s dreams
While angels make their music and give my spirit wings
I just concertina and wrap around the world
Staying out ‘til 6 o’clock and singing like a fool

I’ve only got this morning to live
Look at all the colours at my fingertips

I don’t want to stand still
I just want to freewheel
I don’t want to lose this

Save my feet from dancing with anyone at all
Worn out shoes because lotus blue is hanging in the hall
You’re a face in the distance I hope to recognise
It’s like running through deep water trying to look into your eyes

I’ve only got this morning to live
Look at all the colours at my fingertips

I don’t want to stand still
I just want to freewheel
I don’t want to lose this

Don’t breathe, please don’t move
Or they’ll hear us, they’re right outside
We should hide til the morning
Don’t breathe, we could ride to the border and start again
Change our names and grow old

Yes it’s my fault that I didn;t try to warn you
Now they’ve got you in a corner
Yes it’s my fault and I wish I could take it all back
I wish I could take it all back

Don’t leave, well you can go
If you want to, look I’ve made you cry
I would die if you did it
Don’t leave, we could ride to the border and start again
Change our names and grow old

Yes it’s my fault that I didn;t try to warn you
Now they’ve got you in a corner
Yes it’s my fault and I wish I could take it all back
I wish I could take it all back

I don’t know what to do
I’m at your mercy
I’ve been turned off and blind to you
I’m where you want me
This medicine is hard to take
I’m running but I can’t escape
This could be it, so even if it hurts

Kill me please quickly, don’t tease me

I run whiskey-fed to dawn
There’s no excuses
I’m just looking for a home
I need it so much
If you love me then I might be whole
But God knows, I’ve got this rebel soul
This could be it, so whatever it takes

Kill me please quickly, don’t tease me

As the moon draws waves in
I am drawn beside you
It’s not that I’m dependent
I’m just learning to love you

You call me from your deep soul
It’s deeper than the ocean
It’s not that I’m dependent
I’m just learning to love you

There’s no excuses I can see
But love is hard to do
I’ve read a book or two
But our story works as long as you
Don’t settle for the best
Choose me above the rest
But I want you to be sure about it

So as the mood draws waves in
I draw you beside me
I don’t mean to annoy you
I’m just learning to love you

There’s no excuses I can see
But love is hard to do
I’ve read a book or two
But our story works as long as you
Don’t settle for the best
Choose me above the rest
But I want you to be sure about it

I’m just learning to love you
I’m just learning to love you

Wake up Scarlett
It’s been a long night and a high price
It’s up, I’m done
See your soul sway in the daylight

Did I steal your sense of wonder,
Innocence and sight?
I’m strung up like a highwayman
Who didn’t get it right

I feel like I’m falling down
I feel like I’m falling down
I’m cold as the coldest ground

Stand up Scarlett
Seal this bad scene with the ocean
Burn up, return
And I’ll build with you a dwelling
And the sadness will be healing

Tripping through the birdsong
Just as guilty as a gun
Dropping like a suicidal
Planet in the sun

I feel like I’m falling down
I feel like I’m falling down
I’m hard as the hardest ground

You kiss me with little wings
I love your skin on my skin
Lying like water still and blue
Lamplight and juniper-new

You whisper “Be honest to me
Do I drag you down by the heels?
You are a danger how you strain
Leaving me alone and in flames”

But you don’t slow me down
You don’t slow me down

Everything’s nothing to me
This tremolo starlight, I see
Thoughts like cathedrals cold and dark
I just cling to you like I’m drunk

But you don’t slow me down
You don’t slow me down

She opened up herself tonight
Like a sacred heart or a code that cracked
She opened up herself

He gave himself away tonight
Like a secret spilled, a confessional
He gave himself away

They came down with tears
And in the morning it was over
Love is just a scar upon a scar upon a scar

She just hurt like hell
But in her heart she knew she loved him
He could not pretend
He didn’t wish it hadn’t happened

They try to work it out tonight
Try to ease the pain and just start again
They try to work it out